i sat for hours, lost in the darkness
while sleep evaded, kept its distance
love was what i sought, but found it not
or so i thought
betrothed to one, loved by another
lost in love's cloudy deceit
while true love lay just before me
waiting for me to open to it
why do we turn a blind eye and deaf ear
why do we not see the truth before us
like a bright shining sun as we cleave to the darkness,
hoping to see yet we do not
but once my soul's eyes were turned
turned away from the light
i found what i had sought all along
waiting for me, praying i would reach out
and see the truth
true love is not always so obvious
sometimes we are meant to be blinded to it
so that when it is found, it is forever
such is this love..............
©Regina2005
Saturday, November 15, 2008
HOPELESS
Sunset colors, bright, blazing in the west
Another day has gone, have I done my best?
My self esteem has gone and cannot be found
I find myself at day’s end closer ever closer to the ground
I am tired of being a victim, letting life get me down
I want to be able to awaken with a smile, not a frown
Little makes me happy as I sit in my darkened room
And watch the day outside go from glorious to gloom
My spirit used to soar so high and my heart was full of love
Now I have nothing beneath my wings to help me fly above
Why does love have to hurt when one gives their all?
I would not have flown up so high if I had known how far I’d fall
Since my earliest memories of what I’d want my life to be
I have wanted the white picket fence and someone to love only me
My heart has been given to a few along the way
Some of them left me for another, others were just gay
My last true love was the one I had waited for all my life
He professed his love o’er and o’er and asked me to be his wife
Then suddenly he was gone, no word from him as to why
All that is left for me to do now is to crawl away and die
(©Regina2006)
(Thanks to PenLady for sending me the copyright mark)
Friday, November 14, 2008
MY BELOVED SLEEPS
MY BELOVED SLEEPS
i awaken, and look over in the faint light
to see his hair laying gently across the pillow
i see his chest, rising and falling
with his gentle breathing
i want to touch his cheek, caress his brow,
but dare not, so as not to waken him
he is my prince, my knight, my soulmate
he knows not my thoughts as i gaze at him
in the soft light filtering through the window
he cannot feel the love i have for him as he sleeps,
ever so sweetly
it is enough just to watch him sleep,
to know he is there, beside me
light of day will bring it's own joys and pleasures,
but for now...............
i will watch him sleep,
and love him all the while...............
(november, 2005)
i awaken, and look over in the faint light
to see his hair laying gently across the pillow
i see his chest, rising and falling
with his gentle breathing
i want to touch his cheek, caress his brow,
but dare not, so as not to waken him
he is my prince, my knight, my soulmate
he knows not my thoughts as i gaze at him
in the soft light filtering through the window
he cannot feel the love i have for him as he sleeps,
ever so sweetly
it is enough just to watch him sleep,
to know he is there, beside me
light of day will bring it's own joys and pleasures,
but for now...............
i will watch him sleep,
and love him all the while...............
(november, 2005)
FINAL CURTAIN
Final Curtain
Eyes, red, not just from tears, but from lack of sleep
Heart, broken, unmendable, the pain too deep
Words spoken, taken as tokens of affection
Words, unspoken, way too much time for reflection
Love, a four letter word, not to be spoken out loud
Blue skies forever gone, nothing there but a dark cloud
It rains, not only in my world, but also in my soul
Of my emotions I no longer have any control
Couples holding hands cause me to look away
I close my eyes and see the love I had yesterday
Nothing lasts forever, of that I am now certain
All that is left for me to do is wait for life’s final curtain
(c by Regina, 2006)
Eyes, red, not just from tears, but from lack of sleep
Heart, broken, unmendable, the pain too deep
Words spoken, taken as tokens of affection
Words, unspoken, way too much time for reflection
Love, a four letter word, not to be spoken out loud
Blue skies forever gone, nothing there but a dark cloud
It rains, not only in my world, but also in my soul
Of my emotions I no longer have any control
Couples holding hands cause me to look away
I close my eyes and see the love I had yesterday
Nothing lasts forever, of that I am now certain
All that is left for me to do is wait for life’s final curtain
(c by Regina, 2006)
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
FACES OF FEAR
As the clock struck midnight in the musty old place
She pulled the cover up over her face
Somehow she knew if she looked into the night
She would see faces in the absence of light
These faces were real, but only to her
It was only in darkness this would occur
Oft the faces would evoke terror and fright
Then she would discover their truth in daylight
The faces were hers, distorted through the years
Remnants of her past throughout all the tears
She knew someday she would have to look deep inside
And find the happiness from which she did hide
(c by Regina, 2006)
She pulled the cover up over her face
Somehow she knew if she looked into the night
She would see faces in the absence of light
These faces were real, but only to her
It was only in darkness this would occur
Oft the faces would evoke terror and fright
Then she would discover their truth in daylight
The faces were hers, distorted through the years
Remnants of her past throughout all the tears
She knew someday she would have to look deep inside
And find the happiness from which she did hide
(c by Regina, 2006)
Sunday, October 19, 2008
MOURNING DOVE
She shivers as the cold seeps deep into her soul
She hates when over her own life she has no control
The wind and rain beat hard against the windowpane
She knows once more she will attempt to sleep….in vain
Though she hopes that sleep will hit its mark
She fears the nightmares that come with the dark
Oft when she closes her eyes she sees things she wishes not
Dreams of ghosts and ghouls and swamps filled with rot
She is aware that all this evil is nothing more than her fears
Taking shapes of horrid form to bring her eyes to tears
She reaches over during the night to hold the man she does adore
Realizing the hard cold truth, that he is there no more
She slips deep once more into the nightmares of sleep
Praying the childhood prayer for God her soul to keep
With the first rays of dawn she is awakened by a mourning dove
Though its call sounds sad, she knows it is the call of love
As she listens to its song, she wishes she were sitting in that tree
Calling her lover to fly away with her throughout eternity
(C by Regina, 8-15-06)
She hates when over her own life she has no control
The wind and rain beat hard against the windowpane
She knows once more she will attempt to sleep….in vain
Though she hopes that sleep will hit its mark
She fears the nightmares that come with the dark
Oft when she closes her eyes she sees things she wishes not
Dreams of ghosts and ghouls and swamps filled with rot
She is aware that all this evil is nothing more than her fears
Taking shapes of horrid form to bring her eyes to tears
She reaches over during the night to hold the man she does adore
Realizing the hard cold truth, that he is there no more
She slips deep once more into the nightmares of sleep
Praying the childhood prayer for God her soul to keep
With the first rays of dawn she is awakened by a mourning dove
Though its call sounds sad, she knows it is the call of love
As she listens to its song, she wishes she were sitting in that tree
Calling her lover to fly away with her throughout eternity
(C by Regina, 8-15-06)
MY FINAL RHYME
Wind blows rain against my window
Blurring my view of life outside.
The sky darkens, thunder rolls
And inside these walls I hide.
After the storm’s fury the sun returns
Bringing light once again to others.
But, alas, I sit here inside this tomb
While loneliness my soul smothers.
There was a time when I loved the rain
And would run barefoot in it’s puddles.
Now all I see is wet earth and decay
And the storm my mind befuddles.
Now that I am in my latter years
I look back at my past.
I wonder often what happened in my life
And why my one true love didn’t last.
I could sit for hours wondering why.
I gave up some time ago my will to fight.
So why is it I still continue on
And persist in searching for the light?
I guess it is because I am a child of God
And He wants me to come out of the gray.
I have my loving kitty by my side
To help me through each day.
So she and I, side by side,
Will sit together till it is time
To put down the pen, shut off the computer
And end my final rhyme.
(c by Regina, 8-9-06)
Blurring my view of life outside.
The sky darkens, thunder rolls
And inside these walls I hide.
After the storm’s fury the sun returns
Bringing light once again to others.
But, alas, I sit here inside this tomb
While loneliness my soul smothers.
There was a time when I loved the rain
And would run barefoot in it’s puddles.
Now all I see is wet earth and decay
And the storm my mind befuddles.
Now that I am in my latter years
I look back at my past.
I wonder often what happened in my life
And why my one true love didn’t last.
I could sit for hours wondering why.
I gave up some time ago my will to fight.
So why is it I still continue on
And persist in searching for the light?
I guess it is because I am a child of God
And He wants me to come out of the gray.
I have my loving kitty by my side
To help me through each day.
So she and I, side by side,
Will sit together till it is time
To put down the pen, shut off the computer
And end my final rhyme.
(c by Regina, 8-9-06)
QUIET IS THE NIGHT
Quiet is the night
Darkness envelops
I hope sleep will come
No tears, no fears
Dreams, no nightmares
Day, a long way off
Eternity in darkness
Random thoughts
Nothing of substance
Just nonsense
I need to love
I need to be loved
Where is love??????????
(c by Regina, 8-10-06)
Darkness envelops
I hope sleep will come
No tears, no fears
Dreams, no nightmares
Day, a long way off
Eternity in darkness
Random thoughts
Nothing of substance
Just nonsense
I need to love
I need to be loved
Where is love??????????
(c by Regina, 8-10-06)
VISIONS OF MY SOUL...A POETRY JOURNAL
When it comes to poetry, I cannot make myself call this a blog. Poetry requires a JOURNAL. I have decided to create this journal as a place of refuge for the ghosts of my soul. Most of what you will read here was written in a moment of despair, depression, or loneliness. Some came from moments of joy, or even just reflection. I don't wish to depress anyone, but sometimes when reading the visions of another's soul, it makes ours seem a little less destitute.
So enter here, read the typed words, knowing that they are deep felt emotions of one of God's creatures.
WELCOME TO MY SOUL.............
So enter here, read the typed words, knowing that they are deep felt emotions of one of God's creatures.
WELCOME TO MY SOUL.............
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