BLINDED......TO LOVE

i sat for hours, lost in the darkness
while sleep evaded, kept its distance
love was what i sought, but found it not
or so i thought

betrothed to one, loved by another
lost in love's cloudy deceit
while true love lay just before me
waiting for me to open to it

why do we turn a blind eye and deaf ear
why do we not see the truth before us
like a bright shining sun as we cleave to the darkness,
hoping to see yet we do not

but once my soul's eyes were turned
turned away from the light
i found what i had sought all along
waiting for me, praying i would reach out
and see the truth

true love is not always so obvious
sometimes we are meant to be blinded to it
so that when it is found, it is forever

such is this love..............

©Regina2005

HOPELESS

Sunset colors, bright, blazing in the west
Another day has gone, have I done my best?

My self esteem has gone and cannot be found
I find myself at day’s end closer ever closer to the ground

I am tired of being a victim, letting life get me down
I want to be able to awaken with a smile, not a frown

Little makes me happy as I sit in my darkened room
And watch the day outside go from glorious to gloom

My spirit used to soar so high and my heart was full of love
Now I have nothing beneath my wings to help me fly above

Why does love have to hurt when one gives their all?
I would not have flown up so high if I had known how far I’d fall

Since my earliest memories of what I’d want my life to be
I have wanted the white picket fence and someone to love only me

My heart has been given to a few along the way
Some of them left me for another, others were just gay

My last true love was the one I had waited for all my life
He professed his love o’er and o’er and asked me to be his wife

Then suddenly he was gone, no word from him as to why
All that is left for me to do now is to crawl away and die

(©Regina2006)

(Thanks to PenLady for sending me the copyright mark)

MY BELOVED SLEEPS

MY BELOVED SLEEPS

i awaken, and look over in the faint light
to see his hair laying gently across the pillow

i see his chest, rising and falling
with his gentle breathing

i want to touch his cheek, caress his brow,
but dare not, so as not to waken him

he is my prince, my knight, my soulmate

he knows not my thoughts as i gaze at him
in the soft light filtering through the window

he cannot feel the love i have for him as he sleeps,
ever so sweetly

it is enough just to watch him sleep,
to know he is there, beside me

light of day will bring it's own joys and pleasures,
but for now...............

i will watch him sleep,
and love him all the while...............

(november, 2005)

FINAL CURTAIN

Final Curtain

Eyes, red, not just from tears, but from lack of sleep
Heart, broken, unmendable, the pain too deep

Words spoken, taken as tokens of affection
Words, unspoken, way too much time for reflection

Love, a four letter word, not to be spoken out loud
Blue skies forever gone, nothing there but a dark cloud

It rains, not only in my world, but also in my soul
Of my emotions I no longer have any control

Couples holding hands cause me to look away
I close my eyes and see the love I had yesterday

Nothing lasts forever, of that I am now certain
All that is left for me to do is wait for life’s final curtain

(c by Regina, 2006)